First off I would like to point out that I have absolutely nothing against bisexuals and homosexuals, a lot of the people I hang out with are. My two friends who are dating and already act like they're getting married even though it's only been about two weeks, think that I'm crushing on our other friend, but I'm not, and when I told them that they didn't believe me.

I tell them I'm in fucking love with someone already, and do they listen? No. I tell them I'm not really all that bi (that was just one fantasy about Kim from ANTM) do they listen? No. It doesn't matter what I do I just can't get those particualar friends to pay attention to me when I'm telling them important things anymore. Brianna and I have been best friends for almost six years, and before she started dating Sera she thought that Sera was completely annoying and left our lunchtable to get away from her. (I never get that option because there's no where for me to go.)

Sera hits me, even after I expressly ask her not to, touches me even after I ask her to keep her hands to herself, has undressed Caitlyn (the other friend) during class, can't keep her voice down about anything is constantly talking about how much her life sucks and can't get it through her head that if she gets arrested one more time she's not going to get into a decent veterinary school. She continues to scratch other people, hit other people, threaten other people, and yell at other people. I'm no saint...but I do try most of the time.

But Brianna, she never says anything in my defense, only in Sera's. I don't care if she's completely devoted to Sera and won't let me get away with telling her to fuck off, but she should at least talk to Sera and tell her that she shouldn't hit me...or touch me...or undress Caity.

Caitlyn is a different story...she's a great friend, I like spending time with her, but I don't want to date her, sleep with her, make out with her, kiss her, or marry her. I just don't. They need to realize that and let me live my life.

I really need to get away from them and spend some time with new friends who know how to act appropriately and believe me when I say that I don't like someone. I have some friends like that (Cate, Caila, and Alyson) but their table is full and I'm not even sure that they like me all that much. I have two other friends who are completely awesome that I would love to spend more time with, but unfortunately thier table is also full, because they have a lot of other friends. I have two really good friends at another full table, a couple at a table that Brianna frequents, and that's about it.

I have no choice really, but to stay where I am and endure what I must. I am far too shy to just randomly sit with people that I don't know that well, because they probably don't like me very much. And if they did, wouldn't they invite me to sit with them? Maybe not...but I do know that most of the tables are full and the ones that aren't...I don't even want to go there.

So how can I deal with this, while keeping my friends, and not tearing my hair out by the roots?